A Change in Direction
Have you ever been so certain of the direction you were heading, only to take a hard turn in a different direction? I have had the luxury of being free of the nine-to-five grind for nearly nine months now. In the space of no set routines, I’ve been able to follow my intuition wherever it leads me and create whatever my heart desires. I’ve also been so grateful for the time and space to be fully present in these historic times. But this week, I decided to return to the office.
Cycles of change
The last time I was in this space was January 2023. I had been unemployed during the entire pandemic, and during that time, I reupholstered furniture, became an Independent Pampered Chef Consultant and made online cooking videos, received Holy Fire Reiki I and II attunements, and worked as a freelance marketing professional. I was also called on a soul journey from Wisconsin to Florida, up the east coast, and back home over a leisurely six-week period, where I believe I was anchoring light.
In the fall of 2022, I helped a friend with marketing and coordinated a community-wide holiday event to boost business in my hometown during the slow season. I was in creator mode and had projects that were growing out of all that energy, but nothing was paying my bills. When I had an enticing offer to return to the office, I naively thought I could do it all and I wouldn’t have to give anything up.
Lessons in Change
That couldn’t have been further from the truth. That decision to move across the state and take a new job severed all of the projects I was so excited about. While I enjoyed the work I was doing, it was apparent from my first day that I was not in alignment with the employer I had chosen. I threw myself into the role, creating meaningful connections in the community and ultimately developing a local lifestyle magazine.
While I was doing the best marketing of my career in this role, the dissonance of values between my employer and me ultimately led us to part ways. But just because it didn’t work out in the end, I don’t think I made the wrong choice back in 2023. There are no wrong choices. Every decision you make leads you down a new path filled with opportunities to learn and grow.
Growth in Change
While 2023 was one of the worst years for me, I was simultaneously growing exponentially in a way I had not expected, but it flowed perfectly from what I had started in 2022. I was coming into my power and finding my voice as a community builder. And moving here put me in the right place to find my people and launch the work I’m currently doing.
At this pivotal time, I’m looking back for reassurance that I have made the right decision. During the pandemic, I kept saying I couldn’t imagine working in an office again, and yet I did. Over the last nine months, I said I couldn’t imagine working in an office again, and in a few weeks, I will be back at it full time. My hope that the financial collapse would come sooner rather than later to level the playing field just hasn’t panned out.
Embracing Change
I’m going to be finding my new balance in the coming weeks, so I can maintain my spiritual work while earning money to pay my bills. My heart is begging me not to lose sight of what I have built in the last four months. I’m embracing how this new position will influence my growth in new and unexpected ways, and I’m open to the lessons I can learn. After all, the whole point is the journey, not the destination.
Spirit always gives me such a relevant topic to what is going on out in the world. Or maybe my inner world is just being reflected in the outer world, because I can see where we may have taken a sudden change in direction. While it’s not what we had hoped for, I’m going to keep my eye on the potential lessons to be learned along the way and opportunities for profound healing.
