Healing the Witch Wound

This is going to be a long one, but I had a profound transformation this week and want to share as much detail as I can about the experience and how I got here. As is the case with so many spiritual healings, the work started months ago when I found myself in a situation where I was running (aka fight or flight) away from my workplace after a confrontation. My heart was racing and I couldn’t think straight, but I knew I had to get out of there. I headed towards the Lake Michigan shoreline for its calming effect, but it was probably an hour later before my system had regulated. I don’t know exactly because I ran away with only the crystals in my pocket at the time.

Discovering the Witch Wound

After I had completely come back to myself, maybe days later, I actually became aware that the life-or-death feeling in my body was triggered by being falsely accused. My logical brain knew I was in no physical danger, but my body did not. Once I recognized what was happening, I was able to connect it to my witch wound.

The witch wound is a metaphorical term referring to collective trauma experienced during the “Burning Times,” a 300-year period when spiritual women were accused of witchcraft and persecuted. This deep-seated fear, shame, and suppression of power can manifest in this lifetime as fear of being seen or speaking your truth.

Once I was aware of this, I could see its thread woven through the fabric of my entire life. And just a couple of months later, I was presented with another opportunity to face false accusations. I literally said to myself, “Didn’t I just do this?!”

Facing the Witch Wound

I decided to face the fear head-on by sharing my personal spiritual stories online. As an actor, I have no problem performing in front of hundreds of people, but there is something about lifting the curtain on my spiritual gooey center that feels very vulnerable. Since, I have also felt the witch wound manifest as fear of mean comments, as if internet trolls have any influence over my real life in any way.

On the Flower Moon, just over two weeks ago, I decided it was time to release the witch wound, my fear of persecution, and my fear of being seen. I wrote all my fears out on paper, burned them, and washed the ashes down the sink. I felt lighter and ready to step into the next version of myself.

So, on the New Moon this week, I wrote out my vision for stepping into my mission here on earth and opening fully to my spiritual gifts. I also had the opportunity to attend a 9D Breathwork session with Christma from Breaking Free. This was my third breathwork session since embarking on my healing journey back in 2018, so I knew what to expect, but every journey has been unique and you never know what is going to come up. As I waited to sign in, I told another participant that I was partly excited and partly terrified, because I had planned to set the intention to release the witch wound, fear of persecution, and fear of being seen, while calling in my full psychic powers. (Okay, I didn’t tell her that part.)

Releasing the Witch Wound

At the beginning of the session, I was getting into the rhythm of the holotropic breathing of one breath into your belly, one breath into your lungs, and then one breath out. My hands began to tingle…a sure sign it was working. I was a little surprised how soon the tears started rolling down, soaking my eye mask. I couldn’t stop moving, wriggling, shaking…. my whole body felt uncomfortable and I was definitely moving something. The emotions came in waves as if I was always on the edge of breaking out sobbing.

Eventually I came to a vision of being burned alive, the same vision that spurred my nightmares as a child. This went in and out for some time as I released emotions and as the sensations started to subside, I heard that I would rise like a phoenix, transformed from the fire, and that I would use the fire to help transform others. It is interesting to note that I am a Holy Fire Reiki Master.

awakening the Witch

Suddenly, I had a strong pull in my solar plexus as if I had been poked in the stomach. Then I felt my root chakra start to pulse and I knew it was releasing. This process was also uncomfortable and I began to sweat buckets like I was being burned from the inside out. At this time, Christma came to me and pulled on my legs and swayed them as if she knew I was releasing something from my root.

Then the energy moved up through my spine to other chakras. Looking back now, I think it easily traveled through open chakras and stuck around in those areas that needed clearing. The next pit stop was in the solar plexus to burn away my self-doubt, followed by my chest area. I initially thought this was my heart chakra, but I was feeling the pressure in my shoulders and so I think it might have been working to push through the throat chakra.

At this time, Christma came back and placed her hands on my chest to move and release this energy. After she left, I could still feel the waves moving away in the direction she had motioned. I found myself wanting to rush this process to get it over with, but knew I had to be patient and let the fire do its thing.

When the energy moved up to my head, I knew it was in my third eye and the rest of my body was finally calm. My head started moving in a figure eight infinity pattern to move the energy. This also took some time, but the energy easily moved out of my crown. I think maybe this entire experience was a kundalini awakening, a concept from yoga and Hinduism that refers to an awakening of dormant energy at the base of the spine that rises through the chakras. It was definitely something.

Awakening My Power

After all this, I heard that I was now a clear vessel, a channel. The intention I set during my morning meditation each day is to be a vessel, a clear channel for source energy. I also heard “for thine is the kingdom,” which I knew was from a prayer, but didn’t know anything else about it. I would not recommend looking up the religious meaning, but my feeling about it at the time was that the power was within me.

By this time, the breathwork was coming to an end. We had stopped the holotropic breathing and I was in a pure state of bliss with swirling purple colors behind my eyelids. While this is a regular occurrence for me during meditation, I decided to play with it. I asked for a clairvoyant symbol since I tend to not connect with visuals as much. I went back and forth asking for clarification, but ultimately determined I was getting a sailboat. This is one of the only symbols I wrote down in my journal nearly a year ago as a sign from spirit for “clear sailing.”

While all of the participants in this group breathwork session had the exact same stimuli, each of us had a completely unique experience. I’ve had other breathwork experiences that were less transformative, but I think through the progression of events over the last six months, I was primed and ready for this release. I know I’m a different person and already feel lighter, but I’m sure it will be months of discovering the new me and integrating into that version.

I’m an advocate of letting go in general. We carry too much baggage around that doesn’t serve us, so if you’re ready to let some sh*t go, I highly recommend 9D Breathwork. You can learn more about that from Christma and Breaking Free in the Explore the Awakened Lakeshore promotion that kicks off tomorrow.